Forgiveness – insuperable jungle for those who crave justice.

Forgiveness seems impassible jungle for those of us who crave justice. The idea that someone will remain unpunished, after everything what he did causes a pain. We do not want to keep our hands clean; we were more satisfied with our offender’s blood on them. We want to equalize the score. We wish that they would feel also how we felt. Forgiveness seems to us as our own issuance. We do not want to give up the fight for justice. Anger is boiling inside us and poisons us. We know this, but we still cannot run the situation. Anger becomes a part of us – as the heart, brain or lungs. I’m familiar with this feeling. The feeling when malice is pulsing in the blood in heart’s rhythm.

We are angry because we want justice. Because we believe that this will bring benefits. Because we believe: the more we are angry, the more we will change around us. Anger does not understand that in the past things have ended, and the damage has already been done. It seems that revenge will correct everything.

To be angry – it is like a constantly scratch a bloody wound, thinking that in this way you will protect yourself from emerging scar.  As if the man who offended you, will come and sew wound so incredibly skillfully that the wound will not leave any trace. Anger essence is simple: it is the refusal to undergo treatment.

When you still bubbling, forgiveness seems impossible. We would like to forgive, because after all, the mind realizes that this is a wise decision. We want peace, which provides relief, we want to break free, we want to stop the effervescence in the brain, but nothing we cannot do with ourselves.

But forgiveness does not treat anything. It’s no eraser, which erases everything that happened to you. Forgiveness will not eliminate the pain, with which we lived and will not grant lightning-fast complacency. Search of inner peace is a long and difficult road. The forgiveness is what will prevent wasting forces in this way.

Forgiveness – is taking on personal responsibility – not for destruction, but for restoration. It is a decision to recover peace of your mind. It is the perception that your scars will no longer influence your future.

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