One last poem for the love of my life

My life is in the middle of nothing,
Yet you came and become my everything.
Preparing myself for any circumstances,
Even though I’m not sure of those instances.
Ambiguous of our both imperfections,
Nevertheless, can’t hold back your own perceptions.
Uncertain of my foolishness,
Trying to show up my selflessness.

I may can’t force you to love me,
Like how it used to be.
Over a hundred miles you walked away,
Very determined not to stay.
Every inch of you I longed to hold,
Yet, you just treat me that cold.
Obscure of what you want to imply,
Understanding you now is what I try.

Giving you freedom is what I can do,
Over the fact that I can’t let you go,
Once I pleaded you, but you just say NO.
Despair within me come into flow,
Because of what you say and show.
Your love for me become shatter,
Even though, all of me you’re all that matter.

Now that you’re gone,
I’m sure that my part was already done.
I hope that God from high above,
Will guide you, my love.
That you maybe bless,
Even if I’m in a great mess.

Thanks for showing me to what you called affection,
For that serves as one of my great inspiration.
Certainty, I will bid goodbye,
Hoping this heartaches of mine will just pass by.
For I got the hard slap of reality,
That I really need to wake up from my fantasy.
That I’d rather feel all the sadness,
Than to take away your own happiness.

For the last time, I want to say I love you,
Even if I already don’t own YOU. 🙁

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