Contact with life and your vocation.

In the past I was more demanding to activities, because I have to fasten to the process or result. Now I understand that the essence of this hook is in me. It’s like a muscle for the experience of contact. If the muscle is weak, it is needed extreme or very valuable processes that contact occurs. Then I am very selective to the activities and environment. Now, I myself even more discover in a simple processes. Because the contact is now more dependent on myself. And if I am able to focus on the process I fall into the flow where time stops, quiet noise, and I meditate in my actions. This can be staying with your inner child, listening of music, and writing. It is important to learn how to create this contact. And I love this school. When you pass it, everything is making you happy.

At present, most of the time I spend working with article writing for my daily work and spending time with children. Of course, there come many unplanned things, usually it is meetings with other people. And there is already no matter what we do. Because it becomes a presence.

Even when I work with someone, I reflect on myself – how much I am in contact, how much I feel this man, how much I love him. The same internal process I perform when I am working with with my texts. I like calibrating my relationship with what I’m doing. And if it’s comes out hard for me, then I understand that lying to yourself. If you need a lot of effort to identify life in the activities, perhaps better to look for it elsewhere. But I call it self-justification, as if life is elsewhere. You find it when stop divide the world into the live and the dead.

Each stage of life is important and has its own role. All the difficulties, victories and defeats are becoming your road. And no need to change anything: to facilitate, remove, increase. Now I understand this and there comes reconciliation. Acceptance of what is going on, as positive processes. Because understanding meaning of events often occur after a certain time. And when you do not see immediate sense, you feel trapped in the snare of fate.

Therefore, when you do not see sense, make peace and believe that it is necessary. And later you will understand why it was needed.  Or will not understand, because “later” yet did not come to you. But everything that happens is good. We need to believe that and not to fight with it.

I think vocation is one of the illusions that take away a lot of human energy. Discovering what your vocation is, it is like to discover the basic meaning of existence. As if to discover the cause of your ensure and at the same time to calm the existential anxiety.

But if we accept the condition that we are here by chance, without any higher meaning, then what happens? Our ego loses certainty, firmness. We feel unsafe. But such is the purest way to be in this space, to feel the crisp and move forward. How plants and animals. They are not looking for a vocation, but realize it very well. And if take away all these illusions from people, I think, then they just would fall into a vocation path. The life would lead within itself.

It is important to be sensitive to this life, every moment to be in contact with it. Sometimes in this contact is a lot of peace, sometimes this contact mobilizes for action. It is as natural cycles that contain all kinds of energies.

And to be in contact with them, it is the highest and purest vocation.