You said you will never leave me

Mine is just a typical love problems. I just want to get this thing out my lungs para kaginhawa tarong kay bug-at kaayo..

Hi baby! Since i was so brave enough to say YES when you asked for space in this 10 yr old relationship, i will just write here what i really felt when you said you were confused about how you feel for me. Sakit babe kanang ingnun ka nga you have plan for us but you still need to think it over para wala kay mahayan sa imong mga desisyon sa umaabot. Babe, unsa akong gibuhat para makathink ka nga magregret ka nako? Gihatag nako tanan nimo. It’s your happiness i put first instead of my own. Well people are quite expecting a fairy tale ending for us kay relationship goals lagi ta. Naluoy kos akong self unsaon nako pagface ang mga taw and especially atong family nga wala nata. I dont believe in asking space that’s why i fully give you your freedom. I dont want to give you the idea or the thought that I’m still here waiting til you get your thoughts and feelings right. Magsalig kag samot. Dba ana sila “you will know the importance of a person once you lose them”? Yes, dapat siguro ko mawala jud sa imo kinabuhi para kaappreciate kas akoa presence. You said the sparks were gone and you need to get back to those feelings when we just started our rel. No more butterflies in the stomach. Routine na kaayo. In short na.bored ka sa relationship kay way challenge. Yes ldr ta for pila ka years. Happy kaayo ko atong niuli ka though kafeel ko naay kuwang bitaw sa imoha. Murag compliance na lang imo gipakita bitaw sa akoa. Sakit kaayo nga murag paasa bitaw ka nga naa raka always, nga love kaayo ko nimo, nga dli ko nimo biyaan kay naghold biya ko sa imong mga words. Mao rana akong giasahan para nato pero nigive.up ka.You are not brave enough to fight for us or to fight for what you feel. You see I put up my whole life and soul ani atoa kay wa man ko lain nauyab and pooffff you just drop the bomb just like that. But thanks to you in all fairness for being honest about what you feel kaysa magpadayon ta nga one sided nlng diay ang relasyon. Daghan man nag-agi sad sa akoa naagian and first question lang is how to start over? What is the first step? Maynta ang pagmove.on sah kaya ra overnight? Or i wish there is a delete button for a faster healing. Always ko naay stock nga hard drinks coz i drink alone after work kay dli ko ganahan muagi sa process nga huna-hunaon nako balik nasad ang nahitabo. I wanted to just sleep para ang problema nako is how to get over another day for the next days to come. Routine nlng hangtod cguro maanad ko and dli nako makathink nimo. Weird siguro akong coping but i will give everything para malimtan ka. Walay adlaw nga dli ko maghilak or sa work kanang matanga lang kag kalit unya mutulo lang imong luha. Ganahan na kaayo ko muchat nimo una, mangumusta, nga gimingaw ko nimo,nga naa gihapon ang love pero gipugngan nako ako kaugalingon kay dli ko ganahan kaloy.an rako nimo. Babe, mao siguro wala jud ko kabalo unsay plan nimo para nato or sa future kay naglibog na diay ka. 10yrs babe. Ako nlng gihuna-huna nga naa kay lain mao nakadare ka ug biya nako.. though niana ka wala kay lain. Naghuwat rako kanus-a naay mugawas nga balita nga naa na diay kay lain ug pinakasakit ba nga you see your future with that person. Kay ako i can’t imagine myself with another man except you. Would it be a different story if duol ta? Or if nagdecide tah nga magkababy? Siguro basin lahi imo desisyon kung dli tah lagyo or if naa nata family.. Daghana what if’s oi. Hay! i really wish you well and that you will live your dreams kung asa ka karon. I am always here to support you sa tago.. i love you babe! Always..😭😭😭

*sorry for some grammatical errors. I hope this letter will find you.. Just a twig of my life. Wala na kaayo ko ni.go sa mga details but daghan pajud dapat isulti. Mas maayo mapagawas ang gibati gamay para maibanan ang kabug-at sa dughan. Ibook na ni tanan laag para summer b! ✌ any advise on how to move-on fast?