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| I am not sure if you will agree with me but there are times I thought I know everything that is happening with my life, only to find out that I am totally lost and I don’t know where to start. I am feeling it right now. I feel like I am in a roller coaster with no stop button. I can’t recognize what seems to be the good one from the bad one. I am a person who regularly analyzed what is going on with me because I have all the time to over think during the night, but recently I am losing it. When problems occur, I just look at it. I don’t want to solve it anymore. I am tired thinking of what I should be doing. If only problems could solve on their own. I delay everything because I somewhat don’t understand why this life is a never ending struggle, yet sometimes I know, I did, and I hope I am not going insane.
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| Oh, sissy!! Sounds like you need some “me” time!! Doing something for yourself..take a break for a while!! I think we all go through this at one time or another in their lives. Just step back from things and breathe in, breathe out!! I’m just a FaceBook IM away!! | |
| The only time I could take a rest from this cruel world is when I am talking to you there @4cryingoutloud, I have all the ME time at present since our writing site is suspending the revenue, however, I still find it hard since I don’t have money to pamper myself. Maybe some will say, you don’t have to have money to have a ME time, you just need to sleep there, however at home, when I am sleeping I will able to overhear my parents talking. They will start complaining, they will start to share the problems at home and whenever I hear it I got stress. When I want to get out of the house, I go to adoration. When I am done talking to God, I love to sleep. I cannot sleep there, lol. I will get back home and the stress begins again. Blogging really helps me release this. But I know my real problem, and this is because I don’t have money and I don’t know how to have it, but I know God will able to tell me where, but when? Stressful. | |
| @grecy095, oh, sissy. That is the problem MONEY problems!! Being outside and looking in the sky and watching the clouds helps me to relax!! 😉 Do you have any other hobbies other than working!! lol Listen to some music… | |
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| @grecy095 Sorry to hear that happened to you, especially when there are stresses from someone else, and those are your parents. I agree with @4cryingoutloud , I think it’d be good for you to take a break. A break doesn’t need to be long, perhaps just 30 minutes, walking in the park, and going to the beach (if there’s any near where you stay). I understand sometimes we might not afford to spend some free time on ourselves especially when we are too tight with our schedule, but I always remind myself if I do not take good care of myself, I can’t take care of others, even my work. I agree that blogging or interacting with others here can make us feel relax a bit, but I still think it’d be good if you can just turn off your screen, go outside and breathe the fresh air. Sometimes getting near to the nature will give us more energy. I know you have been working very hard, you have to love yourself, give yourself a small treat, then you will be able to serve others better, especially your parents. I wish I can give you a hug. 🙂 | |
| @kaka135 there is no nice view outside our house and if I will able to get out far than our house, then I need to spend my remaining money. I am keeping it tight this time. I feel useless because I can’t do anything to help me relax. When I need to sleep, I will able to sleep and that will happen only when I am super tired for working more than 12 hours a day. When I woke up, the reality begin and I am sad again. I did everything like having a nice bad, downloading some songs, sleeping, eating food, but once it stops the feeling goes on and on and on. So I guess there is something with the way I think about life. | |
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dear sis, you are opening up to us now. That is a good starter and you have done well. At least, we know what and how you are feeling inside now. Although we cannot help you much in terms of money, but we can give you words of advice, comfort and suggestions. We are here to help you out. You are not alone. Yes, without money, it is hard to pamper yourself. I am sorry that you cannot see the nature beauty outside your home but you can go to Youtube, watch those nature video to calm you down. As for your parents, you could voice out your opinion to them. Let them know that you needed peace and quiet when you are in your room. Quarreling and venting anger doesn’t help much. When my teenager was under stress, she voiced out her thoughts. Then we know what we should do to help her out. Keeping inside yourself your problems, would deteriorate your health and well being. You will go crazy, that is what my teenager said. Try to voice out then people around you will know what you are thinking, how you feel. I would bake a cake for you if you want me too 🙂
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| @peachpurple is right..you always have your on-line friends to talk to and you took the first step to talking to someone. Also, you know what the “problem” is and you know that soon that problem will be solved, so see you NO PROBLEM!! You’re a lot like me…you think too much over things you have no control over. So, here’s some “positive” vibes and as always you’re in my prayers and let’s go join @peachpurple for some cake shall we @grecy095??? | |
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Here is a slice of Tiramitsu cake for @grecy095
Or maybe… We should just gobble up this whole cake, eh @4cryingoutloud ?
all cake photos taken by peachpurple
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| @grecy My heart goes out to you as I know exactly what you are going through. I often feel like this and have felt it throughout my life. I suffer from depression and anxiety. From what you have said about how you feel, it seems to me that maybe you may have depression brought on by the stress that you are under. I am glad that you have opened up to us and started to express some of what you are feeling. Sometimes, we need someone to listen to us and venting can be very therapeutic for you. Maybe since you do not have some place by you to get a taste of nature, listening to nature online would work. If they have that sort of thing on youtube or something, but they would help to relax you. I hope that you start feeling better and know that I am here for you if you need to talk just as everyone else here is too. | |
| @peachpurple thanks for the cake, the picture really helping. Where is the whole cake, you already finished it with @4cryingoutloud? Did you left some for us @morgoodie and @kaka135? That is why I am opening what I feel in here to lighten what I feel inside. I tried to watch some funny videos at YouTube earlier but as soon as I wake up in the morning, the same feeling I am having. Even up to now. The added pressure was when my parents started fighting again. I think lack of money and selfishness is what caused my depression. Lack of money to give to my parents because they need it, once they get pressure it triples what I feel. I include selfishness because I know everyone of them are having that kind of attitude and I am very selfless of allowing them to stress me out like this. There is no perfect family, all of us have problems like that, but this one is making me weak I can’t even tell a joke. Thanks for the warm hugs. Your messages are my warm hugs right now. | |
| I am glad that we can make you feel even a tiny bit better with our comments. I know it is hard to deal with lack of money and you feel guilt because you cannot help. Sometimes, we have to take a step back and catch our breath to remind ourselves that we cannot solve everybody else’s problems. It is even harder to accept when it is our family who needs our help and we are unable to. You have to be less hard on yourself and realize that you are working hard to try to help them. You are doing everything that you can to relieve them of their burden, but you are not a miracle worker which we tend to think that we need to be when it comes to our family because we feel obligated to them. I hope that you can come out of this mood that you are in and can find a way to relieve your stress, so that you are not risking your good health. I will send you another hug. ((((@grecy)))) | |
 Anonymous Topics: 48 Replies: 145 Rank: Newbie | you said it! I’am feeling that right now. I wanted to throw life a tantrum just to let it out of my system. I guess, it’s just one of those days that you wanted to make things clear to everyone that you wanted to figure yourself out for a while and nobody should bother you. But when they do let you, you are left with nothing and you have no idea where to start, what to do, who to be with and so on. I feel that and I get it from time to time. Maybe it is also out of frustrations, I’m not getting younger and that contributes to the feeling of not knowing what to do while others already have their lives figured out.. sigh,, |
| @morgoodie receiving the hugs now!! That is a warm hug, huh! I love the part that we can’t solve all of the problems and will need to take aback from it, I really want to do that. If only I could snap my finger and let my sense hearing to disable whenever my parents are fighting over money, I would do that, but it is hard to be blind and deaf when I am only at home. I see all, I feel all and my hands are tied because I can’t help them. Plus, this Blogjob thing, ugh. @slayer08 that it is exactly sissy. Also, it will not help us when we are drawn with this kind of feeling, but based on experienced with me, I let myself feel it than hide it and pretend to watch funny movies because even if I watched all of the funny movies I know, as soon as the movie ended, I am feeling the same, back to normal, feeling down. Let’s hug each other.
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